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Friends Forever

2011-12-04T01:55:00.002+07:00

"As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
As our lives change, from whatever
We will still be FRIENDS FOREVER"
- Vitamin C

Lagu ini fix jadi on repeat song di playlist. Jadi kangen masa-masa sekolah, SD Xaverius 5 Palembang, SMP Xaverius 1 Palembang, SMP 5 Yogyakarta, SMA 8 Yogyakarta.

I'm so proud to be Xaverian, especially SD Xaverius 5 Palembang, batch 2001. Helloooooo xaveriaaaaaans! I miss you guys so much! Jevica Brilian Salim, Novi Vanora, Agatha Ningtyas Wusandjati, Maria Magdalena, Margaretha Dewi Arthauli, Vincentius Frenditus Orlando, Aprilia Puspita, Frestasya Sakim, Sendra Hestiningrum, Muhammad Adrian Rizaldi, Ardi Yahyan Wijaya, Gilang, Andre Raditya, David Kwek, Kok-Young, Hanny Meiwita, Yolenta, Ni Made Rianita, Finia Toni, Yulianti, Brili, Prayoga Wibowo, Lucas Yose Ricardo (my funniest desk mate ever! where are you now?) Hei guys! Maybe someday when you're randomly googling your name you'll find this haha. How are you guys? Still remember me? Arum, hahahahahaha. Kelas 1A, 2B, 3C, 4A, 5C, 6A SD Xaverius 5 Palembang. Later I'll post our photos, hahaha since I stay in Depok for college, I did not bring it here, but don't you worry I still keep all the memories in my private album photos in my room in Jogja hihi. <3

Also miss the teachers! Pak Hartanto, Pak Torendi, Bu Pauline, Bu Vita, Bu Rossa, Pak Matzuri, Pak Katri, Bu Etta, Suster Jaqueline, Mr. Albert, and all whose I forgot the names.

Wish you all guys always be given His greatest blessing all over you and also your family. I really expect a kind of reunion of us. I feel so sad because I've missed the latest reunion in 2010. Hope you guys will be kindly arrange the date accordance with mines, haha. Too much, I know. Well, for you who randomly find this post, and want to contact me, since I barely check on my facebook, feel free to just email me: arumsekarlathi@hotmail.com. Call it narcissistic. LOL

Post Terandom 2011
Hahahahha
Good nite! x

Trembling

2011-11-15T15:30:00.008+07:00

Just another different perspective of mind. I just need to trash it, here.

It feels like, you want to vomit, vomit some kind of words your parents continuously forbid, your God boldly dislike. And you just, secretly say it, in your imagination. And you just, mutely cry, in your reflection. And you just, could do nothing but paint your pain in your new canvass. Did you ever? Your head presses you to give up, aside, your deeply feeling ask you sincerely for giving it another try. Oh kid, I tell you it's not very easy. When suddenly you watch your hands start to trembling, steering you just to stab something in the head. Wondering how it could be so fascinating. But I do not decide, to break the law. Then, here it goes, I talk to the reality, to the crazy thing called life that I'm not afraid.

Fortieth, brother, have a blast!

2011-10-23T00:00:00.007+07:00

Wanting to post something in my blog that is why I decide to post about my beloved brother birthday. Yeay. Here he is, the super annoying brother on earth. I have no idea why he could be that annoying. Oh kid. Let me describe him based on my perspective. He is heady, extremely bad-tempered, and lil obstinate. Aside, he got a plus in terms of affection. He really loves his family, not only his little family such as his wife and the little daughter, but also his big family in Jogjakarta, Lampung, and Palembang. He's strong-minded yet touchy-heart also. Is it true what people say "bad guys often have a beautiful hearts" I don't know. Maybe yes, maybe no.

One thing I always remember about him is when I was in the fourth grade of elementary school. At that moment, he's already worked at Citibank in Jakarta. We seldom meet each other, we could only get together when Christmas. Really rare. One day, around 5 in the afternoon, when I just woke up from my nap, my mommy with a phone in her right hand, walked into my room and came up to me then said: "Mas ari mau bicara, Dek.." She gave the phone to me. And my brother and I were connected by the phone in our each ears. And then the conversations started:

Brother: "Baru bangun bobok ya.."

Me: "Iyaa..hehe. Kenapa, Mas?"

Brother: "Gak papa, kamu sehat to? Gak lagi sakit kan, De'?

Me: "Sehat kok, gak sakit. Ada apa to, Mas?

Brother: "Enggak, tadi itu pas pulang dari kantor, kan hujan, dari dalam mobil aku lihat anak kecil perempuan pakai baju sekolah di gandeng sama ibunya, mereka lagi nunggu angkutan di halte bus. Mukanya anak kecil itu murung kayak lagi sedih gitu, De'. Dia kayak kamu, pakai tas gendong terus dikucir dua. Persis. Terus aku inget kamu. Makanya aku langsung telfon ke rumah, kepingin tau aja kabar kamu. Gak ada apa-apa to, De'?

Me: *diamsejenak* "Eh, hehehe aku gak papa kok, Mas. Disini juga hujan lho tadi, makanya aku bisa tidur pulas hahahaha ......" (selanjutnya ngobrol biasa)

Maybe I could haven't known the definate reason why he phoned me at that moment. I was still that innocent. But now, it turns to be something unforgettable for me. It showed me that he cares.

Twenty-one-year difference range of age makes us hard for being together every day. It's not like my other siblings childhood. They had time growing up together. Yes, they are: Mbak Ossie, Mas Anton, and Mas Arie. How cute. Sometimes I just wonder how it could be if I have born in that era, which is I have umm let say two or three range of age with Mas Arie. Hahahahaha. I couldn't imagine that. Awkward. They often to compare about my life and theirs. Talking about how they had to strive like everyday for just surviving my family. You know, life thirty years ago is much difficult than todays, and I really know it. But sometimes the way they compared it, utterly not cool and sometimes it hurt me. How could they said that I supposed to go to school by bicycle rather than being dropped and picked by my daddy's car or even motorcycle, which means I got to paddle my bicycle for 10 kilometers from my home till my school. You crazy. Hergh, it still gives me pain in the ass, today. The point is they had felt kind of jealous with my childhood, but hello we live in different era you know, you could not compare me like that. (LOL it still feds me up)

Long story, the most important thing you should know is that I really love my brother. I really want to make him proud of me. I feel like i have so many moral duties to him, and I'm so eager to do that asap. Happy fortieth birthday, Mas Arie. Keep being my great motivator, okay. I always hope you for the best to yourself and also your family. All the best for your career and family. God bless.

With love, De' Arum :)

I notice everything, I just don't say anything

2011-08-22T11:39:00.003+07:00

Sebut seorang ayah yang kedatangan tamu, seorang gadis puteri. Anak gadis tersebut datang dengan penuh keceriaan, awalnya, ayah pun senang dengan kehadiran anak tersebut, ayah terhibur. Di samping itu, ayah tersebut memiliki.... sebut saja tiga anak. Anak pertama, kedua, dan ketiga. Anak pertama dan kedua sama-sama sekolah di kota yang sama, namun beda ilmu. Nah yang ketiga, karena suatu keadaan, ia harus bersekolah di luar kota. Jarak memisahkan anak beranak tersebut.

Gadis tamu yang awalnya datang dengan penuh sukacita mulai berani mengisahkan pula tentang duka. Ayahpun iba. Keseharian ayah kini tidak hanya diwarnai dengan kisah anak pertama, kedua, dan ketiga. Namun si gadis ini pula. Anak sulung pun berteman dengan si gadis, anak kedua, emm mungkin hanya sekedar tau sehingga tidak seakrab anak pertama dengan si gadis, nah bagaimana anak ketiga? Hanya anak ketiga yang tau, pada saat itu.

Kini, ayah sudah mulai membaca celoteh anak ketiga, yang padahal, sudah mulai ayah sadari sejak lama, anggaplaaah enam bulan yang lalu. Kalau dipikir-pikir sama seperti saat anak ketiga mulai mengendus angin curiga. Namun keduanya sama-sama pandai bermain muka.

Yah namanya juga bapak - anak, nurun gituh..

Tapi ketiga anak itu hanyalah apa, tidak mengerti apa-apa. Yang tau pastinya hanyalah si ayah dan si gadis. Memang, ayah selalu bilang pada si bungsu. "We're just friends, sweetheart, we have a same intention as friends" Dan kalimat itu, lumayan menenangkan anak ketiga untuk yaah setidaknya tiga sampai lima detik pertama, selanjutnya, imajinasi anak ketiga yang serasa mencuat dari sudut ke sudut kamar tidurnya, namun kembali lagi, kasih sayang ayah selama ini lah yang akhirnya dapat menghantarnya tidur.

Yah, namanya juga anak bungsu..

Anak bungsu takut! Ternyata si gadis memiliki six sense! AAAA! Mana ayah roman-romannya ingin mengangkat pula dia sebagai anak? HUA! Atau mungkin ayah sudah menganggap si gadis sebagai anaknya, anak sulung mungkin tau dan oke oke saja. Anak kedua mungkin juga sudah tau, dan biasa saja. Nah, bagaimana dengan anak ketiga? Jelas tau, tapi cemburu.

Yah, namanya juga anak bungsu..

Jadi sekarang ini, si ayah ceritanya lagi bertapa. Antara memikirkan si gadis yang kini sedang sakit dan membutuhkan kehadiran si ayah, dan menanggapi gerutu-gerutu tidak terlalu penting si anak ketiga. Sementara anak ketiga...

sibuk belajar dong lah.... B)

Haha, masih banyak cerita lagi, ada juga tentang IBU TIRI! lololol ibu tiri :$ Tapi belum ada yang bisa diceritakan karena penulis masih mencerna alur ceritanya, yeah. Menyenangkan sekali ya memperhatikan lingkungan itu. Asal gak lupa sama kehidupan sendiri aja sih. Well sekian kisah pada hari ini, kisah Ibu Tiri nyusul deh, kapan-kapan.

Salam, anak ketiga.

A little reunion with I

2011-08-22T08:47:00.008+07:00

Reuni dadakan, dikemas secara sederhana tujuannya juga untuk mendiskusikan reuni yang lebih besar selanjutnya. Haha full of guyon ra nggenah, tapi merupakan pelepas rindu yang amat bermutu. Here the photos:

Ada Benno Vito Aya Itok Manda Hanum and me haha
Wah jadi rindu masa SMP

wakakakakak with Amanda Sari tuh jaman enem taun kepungkur haha kalo kata mbah kidul gitu. Hedeeeh parah juga ya, tp gak papa deh. Hmmm. Anyway kenapa gayanya harus kayak begetoooooo sihhhhhhh?! *keselsamadirisendiri*

LOL

Cimu

2011-08-22T08:20:00.003+07:00

"Typing huge paragraph expressing your true feelings than erasing it"

Haha just did it a moment ago
not erasing it thou, just saving it as a draft

Hei dear, just want to say thanks for everthing you've given to me. Thank you for always being there when I needed you. So funny remembering again how we could be together again as one. So happy listening again about our stupid stories when we're young and dumb.

I love you :)

Carmelito

2011-08-14T18:53:00.014+07:00

Once upon a time in Peacock Coffee with the most handsome bestfriend of mine in the world! Tee hee. Keep kriting mabro! Distance never beats our craziness. Hm I'm not crazy, you are B-)

Tep bar ya pin wa!
Lets go kita caw

MAKAN!

hahahahaha

Lootja

What you need to do is to take a peek the unseen path

2011-08-14T15:36:00.010+07:00

"Dear life, when I said can my day get any worse, it was a rhetorical question not a challange"

Tsk. I've been feeling so effin ergh these lately days. Those family complexity, GPA's jump down, ego management then many more problems are completely driving me nuts. I unlike being contamined, because I know I could not have been poisoned by their theories. Well, what my sister say was totally right "Kamu harus ambil sikap, dek" Fuh, somehow It's just too hard for me. Bold this, that hard. Choosing what you have to choose and what you should tolerate to others is far too complex for me to decide. Omg I know that I'm not a little girl anymore, I should be more individualist just like my seniors taught me. How they convince me that you'll be drowning deep down there if you're not brave to choose being that individualist which I translate that as a crazy thing called OBSESSION! *long-exhale*

Okay, back to the point. I still find it hard to spell what inside my mind. HAH! I know they're so curious about what they want to hear, but guys, please I really don't mean to hide a thing. I just don't know how, I'm too afraid, too shy to admit that I'm that mixed-up so far. But wait a second, though I'm not telling a thing, but at least I'm keeping the force, I try to swim under water just like duck, their feet are paddling but it's just unseen. Okay, maybe that's the nearest parable.

I'll strive more henceforward. I'll learn more for you, for us and for everyone who love me. God, bless me..

Once in the early evening

2011-02-04T08:11:00.006+07:00

In that early evening, with all of quick plans, random schedule, nobody knew how scared I was. Until I saw a familiar creature was coming and getting closer to me. Then I realized, yea, it was him. He came for me/

In that early evening, we shared a lot of things to share, I did, he did. And I could not stop staring at the face, the eyes, just like doing a research looking for a reason, why he could be this gracieux/

In that early evening, we had no much effin' time, because I had to go back to the freakin' town. Time's running even faster than goddamned before. Even we did not want to see any kind of watch. See? We were freakin out. But all of a sudden, I felt like the time's getting slow, very slow, even nearly to stop/

In that early evening, I eventually, knew/ ♥

But in the same early evening, I had to go, hhh.. But I was going with a unhidden-able smile throughout the trip/ Thanks Nic/ Inhale exhale, good luck for the new semester. 'See you again :)'

Lootja

3 Dimentions (?)

2010-12-07T13:23:00.005+07:00

Heyya
How's your day been?
Can't stop laughing at the pict
Turns out you've that weird serious face
LMAO

-
Salam damai \m/

Madam?

2010-12-04T14:23:00.007+07:00

Terimakasih Tuhan karena Engkau telah memberikan beberapa petunjuk untuk mengisi teka-teki yang selama ini tersimpan disana. Terimakasih, karena Engkau telah berikanku pencerahan mengenai alur cerita dari semuanya ini. Aku tidak mengerti, atau mungkin aku belum mengerti. Namun ku yakin kan kutemukan jawaban itu. Telah Kau berikan aku sedikit kejelasan mengenai pertanyaan besarku pada hari itu. Hari dimana aku dihadapkan dengan kenyataan yang tidak semestinya aku alami, karena aku sudah seperti ini. Hal tersebut tidak aku butuhkan lagi. Mereka tidak salah, aku tidak juga benar. Hanya bagiku terdapat keganjalan, tidak seperti itu jalannya, caranya. Kamu kan orang pintar. Hingga sekian jam setelah kejadian itu, aku tertegun dan terus berpikir. Berpikir, berpikir, dan berpikir. Sungguh berpikir. Dan berpikir. Berpikir.

Berpikir..

Apabila Madam menginginkan kebahagiaanku, ambilah. Karena dia hanya sebagian dari kehidupanku, bukan segalanya. Yang merupakan segalanya bagiku adalah jauh lebih penting dari dia. Dan itu bukan urusanmu. Aku menghormatimu, Madam, lebih dari yang kau (mungkin) tau. Aku juga mengerti kegelisahanmu, karena aku juga perempuan. Hanya saja, aku belum sepenuhnya matang. Tidak seperti kamu yang lahir jauh sebelum aku. Seluk beluk raut ekpresimu sangat kumengerti, apabila ada orang yang bertanya tentang satu hal. Satu hal, yang juga kini, sangat kucintai. Dan aku berjanji, akan membuatnya lebih dari yang kau kira daripadaku.

Madam, anggaplah aku sedemikian adanya. Tidak usah kau tambahkan embel-embel lain. Sudah cukup bagiku selama ini. Dia yang milikmu, yasudah.. milikmu. Aku juga memiliki yang lain, yang jauh lebih berarti dari semuanya ini. Kamu tau? Kata-katamu pada saat malam itu, membuatku ingin merobek wajahmu. Beraninya dirimu. Ingin rasanya kutentang segala pernyataanmu, dengan cara memuntahkan kata-kata yang tidak diajarkan orang tuaku. Namun lalu kuingat Tuhanku.

Madam tidak harus ambil pusing dengan celotehku. Kadang memang kau secuek batu, namun detik berikutnya pun kau bisa serapuh tissue. Tipis, dan mudah basah. Baaah.. biarkan lah aku bergumam, toh tidak berpengaruh pada dinastimu. Biarkan aku beropini, berinteraksi, berambisi, toh tidak melunturkan kecantikanmu???? Apa sih yang membuat kamu begitu? Kamu sayang ya sama aku? Enggak juga kan? Biasa aja kan? Lalu? Chill man..

Berpikir..

Selanjutnya, kembali ke insiden itu. Aku dengar kamu ya team creativenya? Bagus. Kamu tau tidak, aku tertegun mendengarnya. Memang sih, aku melihat kamu berbisik-bisik dengan orang kaya raya itu, dan beliau mengangguk-angguk. (tertawa) ternyata kalian sudah dekat ya, baru tau..

Berpikir..

Apabila rencana di balik itu terpuji, terimakasih ya. Aku senang sih, awalnya. Namun maaf, hal itu malah menguras energi berpikirku. Sialan. Sudah kuduga kan, itu tidak mungkin. Benar-benar tidak mungkin. Bahkan aku sudah lelah berharap, mungkin, dari tiga tahun yang lalu. Dan, ternyata? Hidupku aman-aman saja.

Berpikir..

Satu hal, kapanpun Madam ingin bicara denganku. Angkat ponselmu, katakan padaku. Aku akan datang kesitu. Dan akan Madam dengar, kesaksian gadis kecil yang penuh luka, namun ingin menyelesaikan perkara. Meskipun ia tahu, hujan badai akan menerjang wajahnya, kala itu.. kita tidak akan hanya berdua. Ada satu, dia penolongku.

Giliran kamu,

berpikir..

There's something wrong with my room mate~

2010-11-23T20:53:00.014+07:00

Hello, cuma mau share tentang ke-otis-an room mate gue, namanya Rizki Amelia, she has a tiny body yet huge ideas. She's a busy student, lol, because her faculty hasn't finished the ospek thingie. Oops :-P So, it becomes usual getting her back from campus in a very afternoon. Well, back to the topic. Firstly I have to take a breath deeply before I honestly tell you about this. So, the Rizki Amelia, or usually called as Kiky, readers, turns out that she is very nuts. Omg. You'll find it if she starts getting stressed out because of her lecture assignments, ospek assignments, or maybe his boyfie. Nah, udah deh. Mabok lah dia! Ini nih side effects kalo dia udah stressed out:

Pertama, setelah dia masuk kamar, dgn gaya ngetok pintunya yg kayak putri solo bar poso telung wulan, alias pelan dan lemes banget, dia ngetok kurang lebih tiga kali, naaah setelah itu lo bakal liat sosok muka paling flat se-galaksi Bima Sakti. Lalu, masuk lah dia, dan paling gue cm bilang "baru pulang.." dan kiky jawab "iya nih.. capek banget gue ruuum"

Kedua, setelah beberes dgn stuffs, dia bakal.. emm tergantung situasi dan kondisi pada hari itu. Kalo biasa aja, ya paling terus makan, online, malemnya belajar, yaaah anak muda jaman sekarang laaah. Tapi kalo dia lagi rebek, naaaah, waiki, lo bakal ngeliat sosok gadis berambut panjang berbody kurus berwajah cantik mondar-mandir tuh di kamar kayak ada deh puluhan kali, demi hanya untuk mencari solusi dari apa yang dia pikirkan pada saat itu #DamnItsTrue

Ketiga, lo bakal denger dia ngomel sengomel sedumel-dumelnya orang. Dan bahkan dia bisa me-melodikan omelannya itu

"mau nangis gue, parah.."
"lo bisa bayangin ga sih, ruum"
"demi apa...........astaghfirullohhh........"
"mau maraah gabisa, karena udah capek.."
"aaah...binguuuung...."

Itu diucapin satu menit dua menit tiga menit bisa berkali-kali. Dan kalo ngedumel-dumel gitu paling ya cuma gue tanggepin

"yaudalaya ki..."

Tapi kalo serius, dan emang butuh solve mujarab, baru deh kita ngobrol tuh gimana caranya supaya tu bocah gak rebek lagi. Gue juga sih kalo rebek harus dapet masukan brilliant baru bisa tenang, dan dia juga suka ngasih masukan-masukan gitu. Hihi ♥♥♥

However, ini tadi sore (abis magrib) sampe saat ini 9:32 PM percil satu itu belom tenang juga karena adalah satu kegalauan dia tentang kuliah sm organisasi bahkan sampe events apa aja yg bakal dia attend di minggu ini. Saking rebeknya, nih, you have to take a look these picture. It proves that there's something wrong with her.

And this is the worst..

I'm seriously lost of words, guys, she completely makes me crazy. I just could laugh so loud at that time and took these pictures. Besides, I'm so glad knowing that there's someone way crazier than ME! Yippppiiiieeee! :DD

Lootja

Obama's coming to town!

2010-11-11T14:29:00.009+07:00

05.38 a.m - Firstly we went to the UI railway station for getting the ticket by showing our KTM

06. 18 a.m - This is near the Menara Air UI, everybody's waiting their turn for x-ray checking thingie
Yea, you see batik everywhere? That's the dress code :-)
I saw somebodies aside, wearing their almamater labeled President University, STAN, Padjajaran University etc

Me..hhe (?)
Anyways it was so crowded and sultry, gaah
So, It was a fake smile, lol
(betewe sape tuh ikut mejeng di belakang, kacamata, woo, hakdez)

And, there he was!
One thing that surprised us, he gave a nice ice-breaking by saying "Pulang kampung, nih" xxxo

Giving super briliant speech with a great performance
He talked about education, pluralism, and establishment
Oh man, how I admire the way he talks, walks, smiles, laughs, say "terimakasih" etc etc

Lucky them who sit in the front rowwwww!
They could have his shake-hand + face-to-face and ++++
aaaa

Here the audience, downstairs's for the state functionary, rector, dozens
Upstairs for us, academia :P

Me and best friends
Tya and Kiky :3

Unforgettable 30 minutes everrrrr!
Lootja xx

Aku Ingin - Sapardi Djoko Damono

2010-10-25T16:14:00.006+07:00

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan kata yang tak sempat diucapkan
kayu kepada api yang menjadikannya abu

Aku ingin mencintaimu dengan sederhana
dengan isyarat yang tak sempat disampaikan
awan kepada hujan yang menjadikannya tiada

-

Just another to-be-honest, baru ngeh ada puisi sebagus ini waktu kuliah (shoot me in the head) pertama kali dapet pas retret di Puncak kemaren, disuruh perform musikalitas gitu kan, tp pas lagi stuck abis, terus minta wangsit dari Mbah Google deh, dan nemu puisi ini. Pertama kali liat, baca, langsung damn.. parah. Sakit banget ni puisi. Dan lagi-lagi Pak Djoko, untuk kali ini Djoko Darmono, thanks Pak puisinya, luar biasa mengguncang. Zillions thumbs up! Alabyu, pak!

Nothing

2010-10-20T21:48:00.005+07:00

Hey, how are ya doin'?
Does everything stay well?
Stay fine? :)

Me just done studying, and I don't know I think I'm addicted to you, blogger. You are the only thing that I want to kiss firstly when these heaps of boredom strike me. Well to be honest my tonight-study should haven't finished yet. But oh dear, please just give me a break for a while, I'm deadly stuck here. I am not that nerd. So, let's postpone it. (don't tell my dad) Anyway, I couldn't have a call with anyone tonight. Yea just like everyone's talking, there's one damned provider getting effed up. It became usual receiving messages one hour or maybe two hours late. Geez. They must be stop kidding :l The second anyway is, I'm back missing my mother. Aghhhh. What the hell is going with me??? Anyone??? Can you explain??? Ergh. I hate being childish like this. SO NOT ANY KIND OF ME. It really reminds me of what I were. Oh please, stop it, God?

That picture's taken about 5 years or maybe six in Kaliurang, Jogjakarta
She hold me, hugged me right from the back of my waist
She smiled, not for me
But for everyone who is looking at this pict
She wanted to tell everyone that she loved me
Aight?

-

Well I can't help my self from tears
Goodbye.

Lootja xx

Another rainy story..

2010-10-19T16:31:00.010+07:00

Here all me
With a thick sweater I wore
A cup of coffee ready to drink
Listening to John Mayer's

Mom,

I'm just wondering why the raindrops always fall in the evening lately
Good moment, good time, they used to accompany me napping
It's cold.. So, hows there? Is it cold, like here?
I believe you're doing good right there :)

There, in our room in our second hometown
In the rainy days like this is the warm moment I get from you
You used to cooked me something even just a simple soup
Well, I officially miss you

-

Mom, I am actually afraid
I am afraid I can't stand it if I am in ruins
My head's overwhelmed by theories and messes
They always try to weaken my knees

Aside, I know I am in limitation
No, it's not about association limitation, a serious illness or what
It's not about mine but them
I've been realizing, that I have no much time anymore
It's counting down.. I know

I envy with my siblings
With our far birth spacing between me and my brothers
They've had their enough time with you, and dad
But It's sad seeing what they're doing

I am not going to say that my life is not fair, I am not
I know It's not fair for others esp them who don't have family
But sometimes I couldn't say I am that glad happily
I couldn't say my day was great
when everything for me was only good
Tell me what's happening Mommy..

-

Pray for me and my mom, Saint Lucia
Always show me the right way
Lootja xx

Me want you! Short haircut!

2010-10-15T17:57:00.005+07:00

Kyaaaa
Me really want that short-fake-haircut ~('.'~) (~'.')~
But my daddy says no, and no and no *sigh
Oh man I'm craving for the best short haircut
Anyone would to flatter my daddy?

Lootja Xx

Honey Bee

2010-10-14T15:09:00.008+07:00

► Zee Avi - Honey Bee

I am a honey bee
Shunned off from the colony
And they won’t let me in
So I left the hive
They took away all my stripes
And broke off both my wings
So I’ll find another tree
And make the wind my friend
I’ll just sing with the birds
They’ll tell me secrets off the world

But my other honey bee
Stuck where he doesn’t wanna be
Oh my darling honey bee
I’ll come save you
Even if it means I’ll have to face the queen♥

Sweet lyrics, aight?
Get the song here!

Aaa I want to be a good guitarist
My best friend often teach me how to play
But ergh It never give a significant progress
Me sucks --
I have to learn guitar seriously
I DO HAVE TO!
But when? La la laa (let's singing)
Well, maybe somedayyyy haha
what kind of answer --

Lootja xx

Taken By Trees~

2010-09-06T15:08:00.005+07:00

There isn't much I feel I need
A solid soul, and the blood I bleed
But with a little cat and by spouse
I only want a proper house

I don't care for fancy things
Or to take part in a freshest way
But to provide for my mind to ask
I'll work hard, on my father's grave
father's grave

Go on, run and do overlap!

2010-09-05T20:41:00.003+07:00

It's been a month I'm away from them, kind of strange
The hardest part is when you get a chance to get back
But you couldn't even choice, Geez

But I barely know this is it, this is what people called life
Enjoy its ups&downs, you'll find anytime when your friends tell you right
But you strongly think it's left, and so on

The point is you definitely need a commitment, not a weak one
Somehow you have to grow, kids
Go on, run and do overlap!

Selamat Datang Pejuang Muda Indonesia!

2010-08-25T19:18:00.006+07:00

PSAUI - Balairung
18 - 19 Agustus 2010

OKK UI 2010 - Siap Mengabdi!

That was mesmerizing!
Big thanks for the welcoming ceremony
Especially to the committees and special guests
Najwa Shihab, and others (I'm sorry I forget their name) lol

PSAF - Fak. Hukum UI
20 - 21 Agustus 2010

FHUI 2010 - Kami adalah satu! (grok)

It was really awesome
I like the ending of this moment
May I write in here, seniors?
Tee-hee

We thought that we'll have some rest after
we're doing ospek-thingie for these three week in FH UI
Ha-ha surprisingly there's still some punishment assignment to be done two weeks ahead
Beautiful!

Anyway, suka banget deh sama yel-yel FH
Pertama kali denger, merinding bok
Bikin semangat banget
I just wanna say Thank God for everything You lately gave to my life
I love You, Jesus Christ :-)

We're two of a kind, forever we've been combined~

2010-08-24T09:39:00.003+07:00

Thinking of you
It all comes in view
I believe we came from the same cloud
Two drops in the ocean
Tell me again
The story of when we
We will be together one day

We're two of a kind
Forever we've been combined
Though the current will pull us apart
Two drops in the ocean
You are part of me
The other side of the sea
And we will be together one day

I love this song,
I often listen to this in my bed,
in the class, bus, train, hahaha
thanks 311 for the old nice song.
Keep creating creativity xx-0♥

~~~

Pupu :3

2010-07-18T21:59:00.001+07:00

tee-hee - random - that's my lovely sweety dolly - his name is pupu hahaha - he's 17 years old yeah same with me \m/ - he has a good smell and soft body - yet he's kinda abal - mehehe - he's a really patient doll on earth - I used to kiss, hug, even poke him - yea whenever I want - nyunyuu ♥♥♥

Gemesssh gemesssh gemesssh ♥

2010-07-10T11:17:00.006+07:00

There's a lot of adorable kids here. Can't wait to have one on my own tee-hee ☺
Irrrgggghhhh gemuesnyaaaa xxxx

P.s:
It seems like from now I'll continously collect kid's picture in my blog
xxx

Wishin' you a very Happy Birthday, sweethearts ♥

2010-07-07T12:59:00.003+07:00

Happy Blessed-Day to my twin nephews Mathias & Moses (June 30th)
and my beloved girlfriends Neza & Chintamy (July 3rd and 4th)

Wishin' you a life packed with loads of happiness, sunny smiles, & lotta love
Hope you have a very Happy Birthdaaaaaay

♥♥♥

Seneng deh bikin sahabat seneng
I love you so bad
Neza Chintamy Mira Fara Oka Tante Yanti

gaaaaah
It's sad realizing that I'll be leaving soon
:(:(:(

For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word that makes you doubt me

2010-06-10T08:30:00.000+07:00

I've seen u since
Take all I say never react
I had to say most of it
I promised I'll be nice from now on

Hide it in every little chance I seem to hurt u
Hide me from everything I do that makes u doubt me
Hide it in every little chance I seem to hurt u
Hide me from everything I do that makes u doubt me

For all I try to say I shy away
I seem to hurt you
For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word
That makes you doubt me

Pa pa pa pa... most... I promise I'll be nice from now on
For every stupid shout it's thougtless word
O I love u... sure, I love u... o I love u... sure, I love u
For all I try to say I shy away
I seem to hurt you
For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word
That makes you doubt me

Pa pa pa pa
For all I try to say I shy away
For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word
Hide it in every little chance I seem to hurt u
Hide me from everything I do that makes u doubt me

They say bad beginnings make happy endings ☺

2010-06-03T09:19:00.006+07:00

Let the raindrops the air and strongly fall to the ground, because that's when they're gonna start their circulation. And if you're now standing in the seashore, you feel your feet are wet with some sands sticked on it. Then when you look ahead, you'll see an extremely wide blue field, which is the ocean. Look above, until you realize you're standing beneath the amazing sky. Listen to the wave, the bird's tweet, the windy air. You're accompanied by them, even you don't really care. Just like what I feel now. Feeling heartless, careless, mm. I do believe that everything will be healed by itself, all depend on you, the key is your behavior. Time goes by, then you'll find the belated right time to realize what you have before and what you surprisingly have now. Exactly, firstly you feel very stupid, why do you have to realize now? Because sometimes people just can realize what they have, when it's gone already. Weird and irritating.

I don't know.. I think I'm about to re-construct my mindset. I want it set mature and responsible. I will more listen what my daddy says, and totally do what my daddy wants. OMG. I'm in danger. Are you guys doing the same with me? Frankly, I feel afraid because what I've been striving now, what I've been running for now, It's only for my daddy, well.... I'd be nicer if I write "It's only for my family" Ha. I really have no idea, what would my life be, if there's my dad in my back. GROOOOK knp mellow!!!! *skip* Ahhh I don't want expect much, It'll got me lazy and childish. Ouch no waaaaay, kid. I am seventeen now. Have to be better each day, yeay yeay ☺

I am on the threshold of some brighter thing

2010-06-01T15:32:00.004+07:00

I’ve got to get out of whatever I’m in
Find a point with my way back to the beginning
I’ve had it up to here with being nowhere near
I’m through with making do, I’m cutting to a point that’s new

‘Cos I am on the threshold of some brighter thing
Not many understand that all I wanna do is sing
My words hold me in place, they help to keep me safe
Push my back against the wall and catch me, if I fall
Catch me, if I fall

With the sun in my eyes and the world at my feet
My love’s in the music, the music’s in me…..

"It's a different day everyday
Don't want you to walk alone
But how can we carry on
When all of these things have gone"

Parampaa ☻

2010-05-31T19:35:00.006+07:00

Helloooo, It feels very long time no blogging, doesn't it? In fact there were so many stories happened to me. Tee-hee. Well let me tell you one by one, fyufyufyu :D

1. I'm finally graduated from Senior High School!
Feel glad indeed yet, in the other side I feel forlorn because I have to be apart with my beloved classmates, the teachers, canteen, and many others. Huuu ☹

2. Since I've been having super long day off, I did some sweet revenge; tee-hee :D
Hang out, of course! Dvds marathon, hair treatment, cooking, swimming, jogging, skipping, stroll downtown, and part time job at Pizza Hut :-) Haha, does it sound hedons? Not really, just as I knew that there's a vacancy to be a part timer at Pizza Hut, I dashed out preparing all the requirement. And surprisingly I'm accepted! Myiwww :3 Too bad I could not stay working on it any longer, because I had to prepared all my college thingie atm. But, I am very thankful for all the experiences, once again, thank you, Pizza Hut :-)

3. Emmmmmm firstly I want to give huge thanks for You, God, now I am officially a part of Law Faculty, University of Indonesia. God, I-still-can't-believe-it. Zillions thanks for You, Jesus, Saint Marry, Saint Lucia, Ibu, my warm family, good friends, and all of you who have supported me for all the time. Ily, ily ♥

4. Emmmmm, nothing, emmm one thing, emmm, I think, nothing. Hahahaha forget it :3:3

~P.s: I miss my daddy already :(

EXCITED ENOUGH ♡☺♥

2010-04-14T18:12:00.004+07:00

Well I am just excited enough to share about this
Isn't it sweeeeeeeeeeeeet?
Ohmy....

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

"Girls are so simple yet complex, so weird yet beautiful"
One word
AGREED

Wish all the dreams we hope someday truly happen,
the happiness, the success, the man, the wedding, the family, everything :)
Love you Mira Neza Tante Oka Fara Cicin Yanti Dhea ♥
~~~

♡ One of my delight ♡

2010-04-05T10:21:00.008+07:00

♡hellongtimenoblog♡
I've had nephews
Yea I am an amazing aunt B-)

By the name of Matias, Moses, and Mikael
I found out that many people like them
And to me,
I love them even they hardly give up to pissed me off

So, last night was a crazy night for us
Having ice cream on our tummy, we went to the G-fun
They're so happy until they found it hard to breath anymore
You know what?
♡It's one of my delight♡

And the score is.............!!!!

Pasti Moses lah yang menang
_---------_

Clos clos closaaah!

2010-03-05T11:37:00.004+07:00

Clos clos closer

anw............ sumpe lo masi aja omong doang
minta didempul!
-_-

Feed back?

2010-02-23T14:23:00.006+07:00

"There's always that one person,
no matter how long It's been,
or how badly they've treated you,
if they say I love you,
you will say it back"

"All the roads we had to go faded away
So now what else Sir
It's been over"

"Look at these differences
Oh wait, I didn't say you got a difference"

When was the last time you talked to me?
Seriously, I feel like I don’t even know you
And I would rather me leave
Than stay and watch you make a fool of me
You might as well leave
You might as well let me know now..

So...... tell me, what's goin on?

Well guys I'm just..... vacillate. What's the first feeling inside your chest, when you see that person who has gone away for long time, all of sudden come back and ask you for a little conversation without any guiltiness and mmm well.... It's awkward for me. I mean, why does life walk like this? Lemme know, what the hell it supposed to mean?
~~~

Random~

2010-02-04T17:57:00.008+07:00

Rah Rah Ah Ah Ah
Roma Roma-ma
Ga Ga O La La
Want Your Bad Romance

GO LADY!
BOMB INDONESIA BY YOUR DANCE!
~~~

"I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone,
I feel the same thing always happens when you’re gone,
And I know you’re just around the corner,
But just around the corner is not enough.
It’s not enough."

Ryan Cabrera

What's on your mind?
Don't you know that you've ruined my life?
Are you having a war with her so you come to that crib?
So-lame.

Static and dynamic

2010-02-03T23:07:00.004+07:00

I'm kinda stressed out. Oh no maaaan, March's getting closer and I think I'm gonna explode! :ketawasetan:

setres, gatau, tidur~

SOC ♥

2010-01-31T15:26:00.003+07:00

vredeberg
DelArt #4
I'm that cyan :)
♥ ♥ ♥

~~~

2010-01-31T15:17:00.001+07:00

stop me
stop me
stop me!

Yes, it beats, a bit.

2010-01-28T19:53:00.003+07:00

Halohaaaa :)
Keep fightin' there
I'ma tell ya this
Here I'm watching you (like the photo hihihi)
Here I'm praying for you..
Go get the champion!
I'll be looking at your happiness
which do make me happy too :)

Till the time come to us, I'll be going somewhere. Yes it beats, a bit :)
Yeahs keep struggling everyone :p
♥

yearbook!

2010-01-28T19:15:00.004+07:00

♥ ♥ ♥
Haa-haa, annual book.
Full of girl's stuffs: skirt, eyes-shadow, high heels, camera, and poses.
I LIKE BLUSHING THEIR CHEEKS haa-haa
(akhirnya mereka mengakui hasil make-up gue) : PARAH (parah keren) :PP
*ting ting ting*

GAK MIRIP SAMA YG DIMAJALAH HUA-HUA; asikan kita dong :-P

2010-01-28T19:08:00.003+07:00

Girls were born knowing the destructive truth could be.
They learn to tamp it down,
like gun power in an old-fashioned gun.
Then it exploded in your face,
on a November day in the rain.
~~~

geez %#!

2010-01-28T18:53:00.001+07:00

you're there and i'm here
there doesn't know how lucky it is
must I be sorry?

How I love my friendsss :-P

2010-01-28T18:43:00.003+07:00

♥ Social Squad ♥
I love my classmates
They're bloody annoying yet amazingly warm!!!
haahaa :P

Mata Hati Telinga - Maliq & D'essentials ♥

2010-01-28T18:39:00.001+07:00

Satu cerita tentang manusia
Coba ‘tuk memahami arti cinta
Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya

Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya
Yang kita harap mampu mewujudkan sebuah akhir bahagia

Buka mata hati telinga
Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta ooo..
Yang kau inginkan tak selalu
Yang kau butuhkan mungkin memang yang paling penting
Cobalah untuk membuka mata hati telinga

Adakah kau rasakan kadang hati dan fikiran
Tak selalu sejalan seperti yang kau harapkan
Tuhan tolong tunjukkan apa yang ‘kan datang
Hikmah dari semua misteri yang tak terpecahkan

Lagi terkintir-kintir sama ni lagu ♥

locyne~

2009-12-27T17:12:00.007+07:00

"Catch me! ♥"
"Merry Christmas anyway! Love you all Xoxo! ♥"

Time goes by, I almost forget your name

2009-12-22T10:38:00.003+07:00

To be hold with your arms
To touch your cheek
To kiss your hair
To hear your breath
To whisper "I love you" straight on your ears
To be on your embrace

Time goes by, I almost forget the way
Time goes by, I almost forget the man
Time goes by, I almost forget your name

Christmas in Palembang, rocks!

2009-12-08T18:58:00.002+07:00

Woy mangcek-bicek. Apo kabar? :-D

Haha laju inget Plembang (kalo asli Palembang, nyebut Palembang tuh bukan Pa-lem-bang, tapi Plem-bang :p) Haha. Aidah, rasonyo pengen nian balek kesano, kan ini nak Natalan pulok, be, pasti lemak nian kumpul galo disano, Misa di Gerejo yg khas nian tu, Pesta Natal disano, makan bareng sm keluargo, samo temen2 gilo tuh. Ado yg namonyo Putri, Puput, Patrice, Hesti, Linda, Niken, Anton (eya), Galih (eyaeya), Ardi (eyaaaaa!) bz. Hahaha apo nian la :)

Gilo..... Pengen nian balek Ya Allah tolong :'( Kangen nian lingkungan Bandara Sultan Mahmud Badarudin II, diklat, lapangan voli, TK MUSTIKA (wawawa) Lingkungan rumah dulu :) Kapan la e pacak balek lagi, kato Papi sih taun depan. Asik! Semoga aja jadi.

Wait me ya fellas, even though we're apart, you all guys still be the RAWK-est in my heart! I miss you so, Kota Bari. See you on 2010! Hope so :)

Someday - Nina

2009-11-29T17:45:00.006+07:00

Someday you'll gonna realize
One day you'll see through my eyes
But then i won't even be there
I'll be happy somewhere
Even if i can't

I know
You don't really see my worth
You think your the last guy on earth
Well I've got news for you
I know I'm not that strong
But it won't take long
Won't take long

Coz someday, someone's gonna love me..
The way, i want you to need me
Someday, someone's gonna take your place..
One day I'll forget about you
You'll see, i won't even miss you
Someday, s o m e d a y..

But now
I know you can't tell
I'm down,and I'm not down anyway
But one day these tears
They will all run dry
I won't have to cry
Sweet goodbye..

I just uploaded, wish you download
I'd be so obliged for that
Thank you

Uno Attack

2009-11-28T15:30:00.001+07:00

villa-crepes
November 27th-09
sometimes we drink even when we're not thirsty

Well I'm far too young to care about that

2009-11-27T12:29:00.001+07:00

There's many things that I have to do with my own brain, none of us have known that mystery. To catch my flash back ouh come on, let the 'operator service' shows the status: pending. Just be calm until it gets delievered by itself, hehe.

Because my brother said that you would be regret someday, if you didnt do prove your best today.. So lets guys dont get lost in the moment. Just leave the unnecesarry crap behind your back! Let them be your wings, just fly.... face the clouds, rains, also the thunders. Get yer dream! ;-)

NO ONE'S GOING TO TAKE YOUR DREAM AWAY!:b

Raindrops&...my mom?

2009-11-26T13:27:00.003+07:00

I just got home from school, its now heavy raining outside: backsound: all Pixie-Lott's

Tadi sih di sekolah belum hujan, eh setelah 1/3 perjalanan gitu terus mak-bresss uwh untung bawa perlengkapan senjata, mantol ;B Aku suka lho pake mantol (mantel apa mantol sih?) whatever -- Soalnya mantolku baguuuussss :D :D Mantol baju+celana tuloooh, jd bukan yg jubah gicu. Warnananya abu-abu ma biru tua elegant gt (halah) Pokoknya bagus, terus katanya papi kalo aku pake mantol kayak Robot --

Lets move from mantol thingie, gini guys... Aku emang suka (banget) sm hujan, adeeeh, suka bangetngitngot :-) Apalagi kalo pas ngumpul sama keluargaa, having some tea-breaks aaaah what a moment banget kaaan :) Unfortunately my beloved mom's already gone... How I miss her. Biasanya bulan-bulan November - Desember - Januari aduuuh pokoknya bulan yg penuh kehangatan.. Kan november pas bulan ultah Papi, ma aku, trus Desember Natal-an :D :D :D Terus Januari Taun Baruaaan, tuh kan libur kaaan nah biasanya kita travelling kemana keeek. Aaah, what a sweet family deh pokoknya :)

Sayang skrg tinggal berdua doang ma Papi, kakak tiga2nya udah berkeluarga. Tinggal akuuu :"-( Ya Tuhan berikanlah kesehatan selalu utk Papiku Tuhaaan. He's my on-ly one streght that I have.

Haduh, gara2 hujan. Mellow! Biarin ah. I love being myself, ya aku ya kayak gini :-) Eh, hujannya redaan. Yaaaah. See you next time, raindrops! ♥ ♥

"Seems like everyone's going down nowadays"

2009-11-24T23:39:00.002+07:00

Hi you my briliant motivator! Thanks for your fired-up supporting. I dont know how to convience you this but I swear I couldn't get you out of my mind. You're too good to forget :-)

I love having you as my bestfriend. My complete F5 button :-) Too scared to write his name, too ashamed to spell his name. Ha! Be good there, keep on backing me up for the best! I know I can :-D

Big thanks, wait me!

I know I'm wasting my time, but I dont mind

2009-11-23T05:05:00.001+07:00

Every single step that I take, every single word that I say, every single breath, they always remind me about you. It seems I used to do that with only you, why do I have to have it with another 'mate'? Yeahs "I know, I'm wasting my time, but I don't mind"

As long as he can makes me always smile (180 degrees with you) as long as he can safes me in everytime.... You know here I'm that alone. So much thank you for hurting me deeply. Mark that, It'll be so hard to forget.

I'll never come around to find you, I'll never eager to call you. Whatever my heart will pretend that I....am....(not) missing you.

~what the hell is this? Im doing this at 5AM. Hell :(

Hmmmm &hearts

2009-11-06T16:44:00.000+07:00

Yee-heewwww

Face the life then

2009-11-06T16:31:00.000+07:00

What a face
Shut up and just put your smile on it
♥♥♥

Thank You :)

2009-11-06T16:20:00.000+07:00

They rocked my night
\m/

They created my first wednesday on November &hearts

2009-11-06T15:50:00.001+07:00

I'm seventeen already
HIYESSSSSH!

I got 34 roses that night
I am a seventeen
♥ ♥ ♥
Thank you for......... everyone :)

kiss huge poke
~~~

My two twitter accounts WERE DAMN LOCKED!

2009-10-15T14:22:00.000+07:00

Ini tuh kenapa sihhhhhhhhhh :(
I wanna say sorry before you read this yell, I'm in a damn bad emotion. GROAR!

Jadi gini, twitter dengan nick locyne saya tiga hari yg lalu gak bisa log in, terus tulisan nya:
"Wrong Username/Email and password combination." Apa-apaan???! Pah dah hal udah bener nick ma passwordnya, jidat nenek lo deh ya kalo nyalah2in aku salah masukin nick apa password. Oke, saya sabar. Oh mungkin emang twitter lagi error aja gitu, kan sering tuh over opacity and the blalalalalala -- Next day, masih tetep sobarrr komambarrrr gak update twitter seharian, padahal tangan udah gahtel pengen cerita hari itu menyenangkan banget yanaaaaw :( Sedih gak bisa cerita di twitter, you know that twitter is already be a part in my life, that's funny cute sweet microblogging. Right? Hihihi. Terus nih terus, hari ketiga! emosi membara di jiwa (kalau lebay maaf ya) tapi SUH WER hari ini aku pengen BAH NGET update twitter YA ALLAH :'( Alhasil dengan semangat berkobar-kobar saya mengibarkan bendera di depan rumah saya. Hmmm. Enggak. Saya terus SIGN UP new account twitter cobaaaaaa ya ampun ngiwut banget gak sih *_____* Saya tau saya berlebihan, tapi suer deh emang gini rasanya :( Dan yeah, jadilah twitter baru saya, nicknamed eccci :) Nah, udah kan... Habis itu udah deh, aku ngabar2in temen2ku di followingku yg lama, terus ngabarin kalo saya ganti account. Oke, setidaknya mereka sudah tau lah. Naaahhh udah kan, udah sedikit lega... terus saya offline PC dan online via mobile.

Kronologisnya: Ambil hape, click on Snaptu -> Twitter -> Nick: eccci -> Password: c******* Sign In. Loading...... (sambil siul-siul gembira ada account baru ^^)

And guys do you know what? what what and WHAT? :):):)

Wrong Username/Email and password combination.

AGAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!

EAT SHIT EAT SHIT EAT SHIT!!!!! MAKAN TU TWITTERRRRRR!!!!!!!

Cukuup sekian dan terimakasih.
Shit.

Almost excited

2009-10-13T16:42:00.000+07:00

Haha!
It's not any kind of craziness
The point is I am excited
that I'm almost seventeen
\m/

Fallin' For You - Colbie Caillat ♥

2009-09-29T13:20:00.000+07:00

I don't know but I think i maybe
Fallin' for you dropping so quickly
Maybe i should keep this to myself
Waiting 'til i know you better

I am trying not to tell you
But i want to I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to I think i'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life and now i found you
I don't know where to I think i'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As i'm standing here and you hold my hand
Pull me towards you and we start to dance
All around us I see nobody
Here in silence It's just you and me

I'm trying not to tell you
But i want to I'm scared of what you'll say
So i'm hiding what i'm feeling
But i'm tired of holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now i found ya
I don't know where to
I think i'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh i just can't take it my heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

It's for you 'honey'

2009-09-15T19:40:00.000+07:00

For you guys who save some question about our story, lemme tell you the fact.

We were really sorry girl to clean you up from the list of his story as fast as he took. I hope you know that we could not cover it any longer anymore. You should know this, we are already to be one and will never tear apart, forever and ever. I could feel the pain, so do your tears. It's lucky to feel it just for awhile, can you feel my heart for him? It has been for 3 years we know each other, while you honey? may i know? Well, i don't know exactly but I think it's not as long as I do. So, I'm so sorry honey, 'I hope you know'

Someday, can we meet, honey?

Beautiful nite ♥

2009-09-06T11:00:00.000+07:00

Based on true story, kita kayak lagi sama-sama ngerasa sekarat sama kehidupan akhir-akhir ini jadi pengen seneng-seneng sendiri kayak orang gila, habisnya belakangan ini kita kayak lupa nyenengin diri sendiri, selama ini kita selalu mencoba nyenengin orang lain (WHAT) No matter of fact it's not truuuuuueee Lol :p Dan semalam kami memutuskan untuk menghabiskan waktu bersama:

It's the rundown of our stupid activity last night:
1. Making super moron video (you can check it out in my video of facebook) ---> It wasted for about 2 hours, created 6 videos and we just uploaded one of them in the end (pathetic)
2. After we finished laughing then suddenly we realized that we were starving like crazy then we decided to have our dinner in Lesehan SBTB (Oh no maaaaaan it was soooo yummmyyy :3)
3.Then we went to Alun-alun Kidul and you know whaaaaat we rode ATV, which cost 5000 rupiahs!!!!! ROXXXX!! We really did have fun with that :D

Keep believing

2009-09-05T11:07:00.000+07:00

Too many songs I wanna sing to you
Too many pages of my diary I want you to read
While too many drops of tears I want you to sweep

In the deepest, yea, right there
I'll always begging you
Please, be my hero even when It would be just my dream

You see?

Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

2009-09-03T20:05:00.000+07:00

Waiting for your call, I’m sick, call I’m angry
Call I’m desperate for your voice
I’m listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember, butterfly, early summer?
It’s playing on repeat, just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
To make you mine, stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious
You and me, flesh to flesh
’Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes, what’s your fantasy?
What’s your, what’s your

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
To make you mine, stay with me tonight

And I’m tired of being all alone
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
And I’m tired of being all alone
And this solitary moment makes me want to come back home

I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to
I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

2009-09-03T17:45:00.001+07:00

Me & my freedom

2009-08-24T09:08:00.000+07:00

Yeah that's me! :)

I do really miss my Mom....

2009-08-15T09:44:00.001+07:00

Guys, how lucky you to have your mom until now, now. You still can hear her tender voice when she waked you up. You can see her mommy-move to prepare your breakfast, you can touch her smooth hand when you sta

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rted to go to school. Hey guys, I'm eager you to really appreciate your mom totally. You couldn't feel this feeling, It's sooo hard when you have to grow up without any touch from her.

Promise to me guys.
Be nice with your mom..

echi&fara

2009-08-04T15:42:00.001+07:00

Hello everyone, itu saya sama sahabat saya :) Namanya Fara. Orangnya bawel, gak bisa diem, cerewet, tapi sensitif minta ampuuuuuuuuuuuun. Ya Allah kalo udah bad-mood gitu hadedeh udah deh mending diem aja kalo lagi sama dia, kalo bisa sih menyingkir aja soalnya kadang-kadang kita gak ngapa-ngapain tiba-tiba 'ditapuk' sama dia. Gila og dia tu. Tapi ya emang sih, she's very kind & patient for sure deh kalo itu :) Kita udah sahabatan 2 tahun, semenjak masuk SMA kelas 1. It's been 3 years....... Sweet.

(Gak tau kenapa, aku suka aja sama fotoku sm dia yg ini. Dari 852.645 foto yang ada, aku paling suka yg ini. Hihihi)

Iseng -,-

2009-07-11T13:36:00.000+07:00

Hehehe, that's mehh :DD
In front of my class
Hihih, silly mehh -.-

Si muka genit ^.^

2009-06-28T16:21:00.000+07:00

WHAT A FACE!!!!! He's such a heart stealer for me...... Yampun lucu bangettttt ga siiiihhh? Pengen tak banting terus tak tendang and tak gendong kemanamana hahahaha ; DDDDDDDD

Silly classmates :*

2009-06-28T14:56:00.000+07:00

echi - fara - neza

Sekarang lagi liburan dan jarang ketemu sm mereka lg, paling kalo janjian jalan kmanaaa gt baru ketemu, padahal biasanya setiap hari ketemu di kelas, cerita2 apa aja hrus update akaka. Kita itu klop, soalnya konyol smua. Hadedeeeeeh -_____-

Ayooo ke New Zealand :-D

2009-06-19T11:21:00.000+07:00

My mind really wants sense called peace, hmm where I have to go? Indonesia? errrgh!

Menurut studi yang dilakukan oleh Global Peace Index (GPI), dikatakan bahwa satu tahun belakangan ini situasi dunia menjadi kurang damai dimana mencerminkan peningkatan konflik kekerasan di beberapa negara dan peningkatan harga baik BBM dan makanan secara cepat di awal tahun 2008 serta kecenderungan penurunan ekonomi global di kuartal terakhir tahun itu. Pengangguran meningkat tajam, harga rumah, tabungan dan pensiunan menjadi jatuh, sehingga menyebabkan kekesalan diberbagai negara.

Dan dalam studinya GPI memberikan peringkat (P) berdasarkan nilai (N) pada 144 negara yang memiliki tingkat kedamaian dari yang tertinggi sampai terendah.

Sepuluh negara yang memiliki tingkat kedamaian tertinggi adalah:

1. New Zealand (P = 1) (N = 1.202)
2. Denmark (P = 2) (N = 1.217)
3. Norway (P = 2) (N = 1.217)
4. Iceland (P = 4) (N = 1.225)
5. Austria (P = 5) (N = 1.252)
6. Sweden (P = 6) (N = 1.269)
7. Japan (P = 7) (N = 1.272)
8. Canada (P = 8 ) (N = 1.311)
9. Finland (P = 9) (N = 1.322)
10. Slovenia (P = 9) (N = 1.322)

Peta 10 Negara Terdamai 2009

Indonesia sendiri menempatkan peringkat ke-67 dengan nilai 1.853 yang menandakan bahwa Indonesia masuk dalam kategori menengah dalam kedamaian. Posisi Indonesia jauh berada di bawah negara tetangga seperti Singapura yang menduduki peringkat ke-23 dengan nilai 1.533 dan Malaysia yang menempatkan peringkat ke-26 dengan nilai 1.561.

Sepertinya Indonesia perlu lebih kerja keras lagi untuk meningkatkan kedamaian jika ingin mendapatkan citra yang baik di mata dunia internasional sehingga dapat membantu meningkatkan sektor pariwisata.

Siapa yg mau pergi bareng echi ke New Zealand? Ha ha ha :-D

Gegabah

2009-06-16T18:19:00.000+07:00

Aku tidak mau gegabah, ini hidup cuma sekali.

Apa aku salah mengambil keputusan? Apa aku salah karena telah mengambil keputusan? astagaaaaa, sampe kapan ini terusterusan begini. I've told them I've tried to make it easier to solve with share about this with them, although It has no result.

Blaaaah.

Finally

2009-06-03T13:13:00.000+07:00

Terimakasih, terimakasih. Astaga, terimakasih ya semua.

especially for you, thanks for everything.

~i lodev you.

Say good bye

2009-06-01T21:20:00.000+07:00

Blog adalah sarana menulis, jadi biarkan saya menulis.

Saya merasa ditinggalkan, oleh semua orang yg saya miliki. Meskipun belum sepenuhnya, tapi setidaknya mereka itu tau, bahwa saya ingin selalu bersama dengan mereka. Tapi & tapi, mereka seakan tidak peduli dengan keadaan saya, ketika mereka butuh, mereka datang dengan santainya dan masuk dalam kehidupan saya lalu dan yaa begitulah, so complicated.

Sering mereka berkata pada saya bahwa sebentar lagi saya akan kehilangan mereka. Mereka sendiri yang bilang, bukan dari orang lain. Tapi ternyata? Yaaa memang hilang, tapi cuma sebentar! Lalu kembali lagi dan yaaa begitu lagi. Aneh, sepertinya ada maksud dari kepergiaannya itu, tapi apa? Memang saya merasa kesepian sebentar.. tapi setelah sedikit terbiasa dengan kepergiannya, saya baik-baik saja, tuh! Mbok ya kalau mau pergi sekalian tidak usah kembali lagi, apa susahnya? Malah sakiiiiit rasanya sudah ditinggalkan, harus menerima kehadiran anda-anda ini lagi. Dan dengan maksud & tujuan yg sama, lagi. Harus berapa kali lagi & lagi & lagi.

Sakiiiit.

Sekali lagi anda-anda sekalian mengulangi hal ini lagi pada saya, tolong, gantian, berikan kesempatan supaya saya yg meninggalkan kalian semua.

And, good bye everyone.

hear me

2009-05-21T12:26:00.001+07:00

actually what's goin on? i hate waking up with many problems ahead.

hidupku ga karuan akhir-akhir ini.
menyebalkan
iiiiirgh!

aku capek mempertahankan sendirian, yang laen udah pada nyerah, tinggal disini aku sendirian yg mempertahanin mending kalo kamu ada di sampingku terus, lha ini? =.= it's better to tell the fact but you can't appreciate it i guess! coba kamu pikir lagi, coba renungin. kalo aku banyak kekurangan, ya maaf, aku gak kaya dia atau mungkin lebih jelas laginya aku bukan mereka, mereka yg slalu kamu banggakan.

just put everything you do with something called love, then feel it.
i leov you.

strength

2009-05-20T15:01:00.000+07:00

my only strength,

disaat kita dihadapkan dgn pilihan yg sulit, yakinlah Tuhan sedang memberikan kesempatan pada kita untuk membuktikan pada-Nya bahwa kau adalah hambanya yg tegas, maka tunjukkanlah bahwa kau hamba-Nya yg tegas.

disaat kita tertimpa masalah, yakinlah, Tuhan sedang memberikan kesempatan pada kita untuk membuktikan pada-Nya bahwa kau adalah hambanya yg tegar,maka tunjukkanlah bahwa kau hamba-Nya yg tegar.

disaat kita dirundung duka, yakinlah, Tuhan sedang memberikan kesempatan pada kita untuk membuktikan pada-Nya bahwa kau adalah hambanya yg tabah, maka tunjukkanlah bahwa kau hamba-Nya yg tabah.

disaat kita lemah, yakinlah, Tuhan sedang memberikan kesempatan pada kita untuk membuktikan pada-Nya bahwa kau adalah hambanya yg kuat, maka tunjukkanlah bahwa kau hamba-Nya yg kuat.

disaat kita ketakutan, yakinlah, Tuhan sedang memberikan kesempatan pada kita untuk membuktikan pada-Nya bahwa kau adalah hambanya yg berani, maka tunjukkanlah keberanianmu.

maka, sadarlah sudah berapa banyak Ia memberikan kesempatan padamu, dan sudah berapa banyak pula kau membuang kesempatan itu. perubahan itu penting, gak ada kata terlambat kok. Tuhan itu Maha Rahim :)

ildsm <3>

lootjabeen's

Friends Forever

Trembling

Fortieth, brother, have a blast!

I notice everything, I just don't say anything

A little reunion with I

Cimu

Carmelito

What you need to do is to take a peek the unseen path

Once in the early evening

3 Dimentions (?)

Madam?

There's something wrong with my room mate~

Obama's coming to town!

Aku Ingin - Sapardi Djoko Damono

Nothing

Another rainy story..

Me want you! Short haircut!

Honey Bee

Taken By Trees~

Go on, run and do overlap!

Selamat Datang Pejuang Muda Indonesia!

We're two of a kind, forever we've been combined~

Pupu :3

Gemesssh gemesssh gemesssh ♥

Wishin' you a very Happy Birthday, sweethearts ♥

For every stupid shout it's thoughtless word that makes you doubt me

They say bad beginnings make happy endings ☺

I am on the threshold of some brighter thing

Parampaa ☻

EXCITED ENOUGH ♡☺♥

♡ One of my delight ♡

Clos clos closaaah!

Feed back?

Random~

"I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone,I feel the same thing always happens when you’re gone,And I know you’re just around the corner,But just around the corner is not enough.It’s not enough."

Static and dynamic

SOC ♥

~~~

Yes, it beats, a bit.

yearbook!

geez %#!

How I love my friendsss :-P

Mata Hati Telinga - Maliq & D'essentials ♥

locyne~

Time goes by, I almost forget your name

Christmas in Palembang, rocks!

Someday - Nina

Uno Attack

Well I'm far too young to care about that

Raindrops&...my mom?

"Seems like everyone's going down nowadays"

I know I'm wasting my time, but I dont mind

Hmmmm &hearts

Face the life then

Thank You :)

They created my first wednesday on November &hearts

My two twitter accounts WERE DAMN LOCKED!

Almost excited

Fallin' For You - Colbie Caillat ♥

It's for you 'honey'

Beautiful nite ♥

Keep believing

Your Call - Secondhand Serenade

Me & my freedom

I do really miss my Mom....

echi&fara

Iseng -,-

Si muka genit ^.^

Silly classmates :*

Ayooo ke New Zealand :-D

Gegabah

Finally

Say good bye

hear me

strength

"I feel 40 kinds of sadness when you’re gone,
I feel the same thing always happens when you’re gone,
And I know you’re just around the corner,
But just around the corner is not enough.
It’s not enough."